Since childhood, my dream had always been to become a published author. Of course, I wanted to be successful enough to earn a living from it, after all that’s ‘living the dream,’ right? I may have accomplished part of that dream (and entirely of my own volition) but having done so only created another problem.
For some weeks now, I’ve come to a realisation that has been staring me in the face for quite a while, but I continually fought against it. The truth is, I cannot be a full-time author (at least at this stage in my life). I guess, together with my chronic pain, it has all played havoc with my mental health.
I had come to the belief that if I couldn’t make it as a full-time author, then I was a failure. The dream was one thing, but the reality was different. On a recent short break away from home, I eventually refused to listen to the negativity anymore and began weighing up the positives. It wasn’t so bad after all.
When it comes to writing, there is no right or wrong way, it’s each to their own. It can be full-time, part-time, or even a hobby. I had always envisioned writing full-time, but now I know it is not for me just yet. Besides, as writing is a solitary endeavour, even this self-confessed introvert could do with some social interaction occasionally. 😉
This year, I will be focusing on getting a ‘real’ job, preferably part-time, so that I will still have time to write, but it’s a case of taking whatever I can get. I now regard my writing as a ‘professional hobby,’ continuing to put out a high-quality product but with less stress and trying to find the joy in writing once more. Besides, going back to a ‘real’ job will help me get some money together so that I can accomplish other things on my bucket list, mainly travel.
Mid-life crisis? Maybe, but at least I can come away satisfied I’ve achieved a lifelong goal. The writing won’t stop, but my mental health is important, too.
Have you had to reassess your writing goals recently? Did you ever turn your hobby into a profession? What are some of the things still on your bucket list?